| well I honestly didn't think i had this stupid thing... but to my surprise... I do! hurray! umm i guess. yeah so i'm sitting at jeff's bored outta my mind! that's where all the poems came into play... blah! life sux and i feel all emo! is that normal? possibly not! GOLY! yes i said it Brandi! you'll be fine i promise! you know its kinda weird how things seem to get better and then all of a sudden... WHAM! you're hit with something that shatters your world! break up, loss, what ever the case its painful! taking your life is just stupid but it crosses your mind just like everything else does... rambling about randomness, it's always fun i guess... besides that i got nothing better to do... do you ever hate people? or "dislike" them? i get that feeling a lot! especially when i go to that hell whole of a home down the street! then you got others who judge you and yadda yadda yadda... and there's even a few that just want to have the pleasure of kicking your ass! why? because they can! and sometimes it takes a turn for the worse and they end up getting there ass kicked... if thats the case you haven't seen the last of them... goo! guys! lets get things straight about this subject... yes i got a boyfriend and yes i obviously do like him at the moment or i wouldn't be dating him... but for some odd reason i tend to get irritated or bored with them... i duno maybe its just me... i don't think i'll ever get married or have kids just because of the fact it'll leave you tied down... that's so not me... i'm an adventurous individual and i plan to go places even if it means loosing a few along the way... brain cells and guys... I've made mistakes in my life... Smoking drinking other things you don't need to know about... I've hurt people through it all... people that didn't really ever deserve it... you know who you are... why i did it is beyond me... i feel i don't deserve ne thing good in my life because thats not supposed to happen in my life... GOOD? not for me... i know all you guys out there have good intentions and such but if you're a good guy chances are my stupid ass will end up crushing you for my own sick pleasure... well it sure as hell ain't pleasurable! I hate hurting people... maybe thats the reason i break up wit them... so they don't get too attached... or the fact that i'm in enough pain and i don't want to give them that chance to hurt me first... well this has been an interesting convo... my life sux and emo should've so been my middle name... cut my wrists and black my eyes... no thats stupid... kinda a stupid song too... what eva what eva... needles are cool! sorry! random! peace out normal and confused |
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| its memorial day and u wouldn't believe how bored i am! ahh! i was supposed to go to the fair today wit some frnds but i got up too late... then when i did wake up no one was here... as usual... gays! i swear it! they nevr tell me where they're goin which pisses me off cuz i get yelled at if i dont tell em where i am! ahh! so i'm sitten here on this hot and muggy day sweating half to death... listening to 103.9 and drinkin tea... sad but true... had plans but didnt get up in time to do them... i think i should invest in an alarm clock! |
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| well today is fuckin hot as fuck! ahh! i'm boiling! literally! no not really i lied! but its hotter than hell... and its only the beginning of summer break... i kno fo sho i'm goin swimmin... no doubt in my mind about that one! well i'm out1 LOVES YAS ALL! |
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| last night me and b actually hung out wit Jeff! it was so weird! VERY WEIRD! i'm thinkin hes on somethin honestly... but we had a blast.... me and b wrestled around hung out wit melissa and levi and josh and dylan then when melinda went home jeff and sam and chris came ovr to levis and hung wit us. me and b tryed to wrestle down jeff but it didnt happen... grr... hes... too... powerful! ahhhh! but then after that we all went to jeffs for the first time in forever and listened to sam play his guitar... this guy is freakin awesome when it comes to guitar! ahh! well thats about all that happened... |
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| well hello! haven't talked to u in a while! well jus to let ya kno a lot has happened to me! grr argh angry face! for starters, i went to a concert in columbus on sundayto watch one of my good friends rock out in his band... the concert was kick ass! got to see a lot of cool bands and gotta hang wit my awesome friend brandi! the after party wasn't all that great though... we went to go get in the car to go home and the car was gone... i found this humurous but my dads girlfriend was freaking out! haha! it was towed jus to let ya all kno... parked in an illegal spot and it got towed away while we were in the newport music hall watchin the concert. talked to the cops and found out where it was... walked to the place and gave them hell cuz the cop told us we could get stuff outta the car and they told us differently when we got there and were bein really rude to us... well brandi's lap top is in the car... which isn't good at all... the lap top is supposed to be turned in tomorrow... but we've already been bitched at by the super intendent at school for that and he gave us till tuesday of next week to get it and turn it in... but ne way... we ended up walkin like 10 blocks to the towing place only to be told we couldn't get ne thing we wanted outta it... then we walked up the street and hung out at a local grociery store waiting for our ride until they closed. then we went to a pool hall which is a bar and stayed there for a while... the rest of the night we were out on the street waitin for our ride in the bad part of columbus... grr... i acually had fun though... except for the fact i was dying of thirst... blah! didn't get home until 4:00 - 5:00 in the morning... it felt like as soon as i lay down it was time to go to school... my eyes were on fire all monday when i went to school... i wanted so bad to sleep... grr... then i got home and didn't even go to sleep... my body was up but my eyes were on fire... i went and hung out wit my frnd found out my new nickname from jeffs bitch is the virgin hooker and stole my bros. bike and rode it around springfield... then when i went home i layed down and i was out... i guess my dad tried to wake me up to eat dinner and all i did was look at him and went back to sleep... i didn't get up till 6:30 this morning... today i had ppl sign my chef coat and got a boo... it was weird how it happened... he wanted me to ask him! so i was like jus say yess its a game... haha! he said yes and i was like so its final! we're dating! haha! i told him he blacked out when i asked him but i did and he said yess... lmao! so i have to bring him in all the necessary paper work tomorrow so he can fill it out to make it final and then well be good! haha! well thats about it! I'm tires so goodnight! only one more day of school! AHHH! BYES |
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